Fire and Ice 2

I've searched the world,
And I've crossed the borders,
I've broken the rules,
To just see 1 sight of you,
How jolly and cheerful your presence was,
In search of it I've travelled so fat,
From Pluto to Mars,
It was a fair bit,
But not much if I could find you dance,
In the fire,
Like you always did;

And so I catch a glimpse of you,
Only to find you weren't searching for us,
I was alone in my demise,
And I had paid the price too high,
Your land is warm unlike mine,
I didn't mind for every inch that I melted,
I could see your face alight,
Now I shall be the dancing cloud,
Lost in vapour on your land,
Moving around like a shapeless soul,
My only peace shall be your well being,
And to that I shall burn away;

I shall float on your skies silently,
And hope someday you'd feel as missing as I today;

The Need For Change (Women's Day Special)

I know, you're probably tired of the cliche Women's day posts and this is not another one. It still salutes the spirit and reason for celebrating the day but it will inspire you to think, that's all that I wish to do, to create a thoughtful human generation.

Btw, for all those who look at us (and I am a woman and I proudly stand by my gang) and think we are bestowed with advantages, I cannot but tell you how much you missed beneath the surface, so for once just trust me and believe me it's hell lot more gory. Don't fall for the trap, the mostly male dominated society has barely ever given any fruits for free. 'Free' is just a lustful word.....it's straight gory. Ask a girl and you'll know the pain in her eyes. And I hate to find this gory truth about our society and I hope for a better future, a much better future.

This post is however on small things in life, how we tend to qualify small deeds and relate them to bigger things in life like molest, injustice etc. This Naked truth's for the society, notice the pain each actor potrays. The truth is women mind when you talk about them and I truly believe that shouldn't be the case. However, that's one of the ways women communicate, so the society should realize they have a bigger responsibility here. Good luck to all the women and raise your voices......because as 1 you're alone, along with us we are quite the voice.

To hold on!

This is contradictory. Some of you will oppose me. You'd say letting go is better.....but maybe hear me out. Maybe there's just a little more than just that.

In the mesh of life there are people who become our forever.  Sometimes they don't make it to forever but they'd still be that 1 time in your whole life person. You'll never meet anybody as amazing as them, as weird as them, as rebelling as them, as opposing as them and someday you'll realize you loved them just that way, for their courage to be so different. They are the fresh wiffs of air in the stinking mundane society. They may have been acquaintances, friends, enemies or just a stranger. And being able to credit them for just that is ab adorable quality.

So why should we hold on? That's because it's the good part, the lesson i'm asking you to hold on. You could be a little shaken up with the emotions but once you move over them, you'll see every aspect if change and realization this soul brought to you helped you grow.

And after all that here comes our belittled lives. We are all going to live a noted few years and then perish into nothing. In this nothingness we have this one chance in believing in the forever, in making things count, in holding hands and I think that's why you should stick on. That's why you should hold on. Because even if it breaks you, if that little chance worked, you'd be happier than the happiness you've known. Maybe you'll know love in its true sense. And that I believe is worth all the heart breaks, it's worth all the communication needed to clear up messes.

It's important to hold on to the things we care about. If it were your dream, you'd not let it go, would you? Why do we let love not be worth it? Why don't we give it the equal chance? Just because we're too hurt to respond. Maybe. But if you try just a little harder, if you fight a little harder, maybe that's what you'll need when you're in deep shit. 

There are so many things in my life I don't want to give up and yet I know time will win. Should I love in fear? Maybe. But it too has its limits. I don't know how I'll manage when this does happen but I just hope i'very done my best. And I hope the people I talk of spend their best lives here. At least I know, I made the best of what I had. And I will hold on to every bit of it, it's our only hope!

The part that'll always live on - 'the family'

This isn't just my extremely emotional outlook towards an extremely supportive family. It is also my appreciation to their ability to put us truly before society and I salute that.

Today's story is dedicated to my true role models in life, my parents, each of them have taught me a lot in life. They didn't tell me how to live it but literally showed it to me. They didn't lie to me. And I am happy I was that lucky.

If I ever told you the nightmares we've been through, if I ever told you my tales.....you'd be surprised we survived it. And that's exactly why I know how much a well knitted family means. Ever heard the famous lines from Charlie and the chocolate factory?....."I'd not give up my family fir the entire chocolate in the world".He said some wise words.

This is a bond that science can't explain. This is a bond where you are willing to lay down your life, probably much more. It is not blood I am talking of here, I am talking about selfless love that one can give to another to the extent where there is no limit.

Over the miles, on a single call, my mother knows what my heart feels. She knows exactly what I need and over the distance comes my magic hug. My phone knows whom to call when I am afraid at 2 am.....and that's not just machine learning.

My father waits for that 1 call which I often delay in the entire day. And then if i'm late, he'll probably be a little agitated and then i'll know what went wrong. I know, I owe them so much more. But here's the good thing, i'm not scared because I know they'll love me the same. I know they are there.

And then come the sibling. It is a unique bond in itself. No one can barely imagine it unless you've been in it. A roller coaster it is. It's like you have a twin whose heart beats with you, you can feel their pain and anger and yet sometimes you cannot do much about it.

At the end of the day, this is that part of my life I will not share with you, with anybody. This is that one part for whom i'd kill, do all the nasty things I need to. I'd do anything to keep them safe. And if you come my way, I am sorry but that was a major mistake!

I know I sound scary......believe me I am. When it comes to this, I definitely am.

The Connect

I communicate everyday,
I write and this keeps me alive,
If I were to live without it,
I'd probably be dead,
So I write here,
And I pour my heart,
Where nobody will come along and judge my thought,
Where I can be as vulnerable as possible,
And yet no one can slide the dagger over;

I cannot say, it were not something I longed,
I cannot say I apologize,
Because that would be a lie,
And I'd do anything but give away such beauty to lie,
I've endured enough and I have waited long,
For whatever be the reasons,
They were gory and broad,
I lost myself once,
And many more times in the crowd,
I rose again with the tattered self,
With whatever I had left of me,
And I heard something from a distance long,
It guided me to security,
It taught me how the broken can be strong;

I don't love you,
I don't even like you,
What I believe is I connect with you,
On every broken bone I got,
Cause that is where my music resounds,
For that is where I resonate;

I've seen the world,
Many parts of it,
I've met the world,
Many people on it,
And yet I never felt like a part,
I know they wanted it more,
The togetherness of my pain,
But I couldn't make them understand,
That the phoenix were only beautiful to look at once it returns,
The burnt feathers were not;

I've swept through like a gliding spirit,
Fully aware of how painful I was,
I knew the magic and potions galore,
But I knew the pain and sorrows even more,
Some thought they were prizes to bear,
And some thought they were awards to declare,
I'm sure the fight was no less,
But I've seen their ignorance so well,
You I do not love I know,
I find my broken pieces in you,
I find the pain resound in you,
I connect with you;




The willows creak,
The wind sweeps,
I've come with the wind,
And I shall leave just the same,
Saving I will never need,
The worst has already been done with me,
I hoped to share our burden alike,
But that's a choice only nature should abide!


Just know for sure,
When I've whispered a word,
It must crossed my wounds twice,
It must have reiterated in my soul forever,
It must have killed me twice,
I must have been guided to this longing sound,
And seeing it happy is all I want.



P.S. - Do not take any reading personally. A poet writes and a poet feels. This is a liberal space where I have all liberty to write as I must feel.