face

I'm a face ,
In a million trillion rush,
Apart I donot stand,
Yet u stop only at me;

But this is not me,
It's just a facade,
So we look amiable,
But u're not unknown to my vices,
My bad moods,
My being worried,
My being jealous,
And u still take a stand,
For the me in that trillion rush;

But today is a different day,
I'm nomore as I look,
I'm a different face,
A vision beyond my face,
I will need;

In the same rush,
I'm here again,
In the trillion crowd,
Hoping that u'll stop,
Like u always do;

You stopped,
Perplexed you seem,
See beyond the face,
You'll know it's me,
I know u can see more than that;

But U move on,
Then was I wrong,
Was my face all I had,
My identity is washed?

Wait!,,,,,look again,
Maybe u could try again,
And see beyond,
The surface I hold;

You're back,
You've come again,
Frantic on not seeing me,
Here I am,
Can u not understand,
With my mere presence?
Into my eyes,
You look just like as always,
Can you not read my thoughts,
I don't want to force,
If it's not today,
I'll leave without you,
As i've promised!

......You look away,
It's time for me to go,
For without the surface,
My identity is lost,
My face lost,
I'll walk alone again,
Hope u forget me,
It's just the face anyway.......

Wait!.....But my hand's held back,
I turn,
So is it you? 

dilemma ?

It's a msg more to say.....                                                            


It's not easy,
Not easy at all,
To know you
And yet be apart;

I haven't been
At a distance though,
But you seem to be
Moving in and out;

I wasn't looking back,
Infact I had walked on;
But way later,
I had turned back,
And saw you looking in my distant hue,
I could see it was so true;

No fake hath
Left me ajar,
I'm impervious to the superfluous
And so was I so far;
Until I saw,
It was for long,
Long enough to be false,
I gave it another chance,
And I know I wasn't wrong;

I'm not mistaken,
That I know,
But your way,
All suddenly unassuaged ;

I fear not your return,
But I fear the days going by,
For time is ominous,
It waits for none;

The shell you seek,
To be distant from me;
I sense some doubt,
You're having in me.

Whatever it is,
Valid or not,
I'd like you to know,
I play not false!

Beyond the bars,
You've read my thoughts,
You've made me think a second time,
And now i'm sure,
You meant it then,
Today I say I mean it now,
Have no doubt,
For I play not false,
Betray me not,
For I take not haults!

visible mist

We never spoke
Yet untied we never remained,
Everytime we crossed our paths,
There was little more than ignorance
And yet today you passed by........



The white clouds,
Like cushions they slide,
By the side,
Rolling , jumping and falling apart;

I turn again,
The cafe retains your void space still......

There's a small boy,
Staring at me so frequently,
I smile back
But his eyes seem to be questioning me,
The answer to which I donot hold,
But the trust I behold;

The boats send ripples,
All around the Naini Lake,
And the clouds are coming down,
To caress or to play a new game,
My heart skips a beat,
As I hear the question reverberating in me,

I turn again,
The cafe retains your void space still......

My eyes are moist,
Mom says I don't drink enough water,
And the flower seller,
Gestures me for a routine sale,
I must look away.....
I just did....
But I know it'll be fine once you reach;

That kid,
He's got eyes like yours ,
So intense,blue and true,
He's waving to me,
I don't want to wave back,
It feels like I let go of you,
I'm twisting and turning in my place,
Growing impatient,
But I don't want to turn,
To see the cafe drowning my hopes.....

The kid has a touch of cashmere,
His arms so smooth,
And cheek red like yours,
He's holding my arm,
Playing with me,
Questioning me how growing up is,
He's too little,
I want him to dream,
Not to fear the dark;

I turn now for the last time,
The cafe retains your void space still......

I look into those questioning eyes,
I feel there's more,
I smile at him,
Buy him a flower,
And walk him to the mall,
To his biological mother............

I knew it was your son,
The moment I saw his eyes,
But I'm just happy they are honest,
I know the cafe must remain empty,
Even if it doesn't i'll never return............

lost and tried

tried and lost it should hv been?-read again it's the other way round



Sound or noise is it
That which surrounds my head,
The alleys are crowded,
Dark and desolate though.....

I smile at my tyranny,
The one I make to shoo the sympathy away,
They stare with innocence,
Like I used to at the gate once........

On the pavement I sit,
With only lessons unlearnt
And feeling all bitter,
The belgium chocolates thrown at me not sweet anymore.....

There at a distance,
I see my shadow,
It's smile echoing in me,
It grows louder with every tear I swallow........

I fight a lost war,
Pervasive pain granting a vent,
With fits of laughter,
I change into a decent soul again......

Wherein I stand,
I can see the moon and you once again,
The pain is washed,
I once again will stand up to keep my word,
As long as I know you'll be standing right there!

a twisted tail

No this won't be a poem or a story just an article-plain and simple as that.
Many books , novels from engg. guys are published and their experiences are shared but not the other gender. Not that u've missed a lot but a little may be.......

~in honour of people who feel girls can score more easily in labs and similar other exercises-Well may be this is a patent thing in India but from the point of view of engineers I'll give a better insight-just a little though , the rest (RIP)

The chairs are empty and u can take ur seat bt careful sm1 might take advantage of u anytime! U musn't tell teh lady beside u because she'll think u're boasting abt ur figure-Dilemma.......through which a woman travels ......yet she comes out victorious  all safe and sound. Years after she wl nt forget what happened bt she cannot usually tell it to many........even if it means to safeguard otherwomen........complex?......maybe because it's because of the society i'm nt sure i'm only saying what i've seen.
During lab classes she's determined to learn as much as possible bt whenever there's  a circuit prob. she must resolve fr the person in concern might take advantage of her like last time-It happens face it!......
During viva this same guy will ask u to take the seat closer to him .... u'll say "y nt thsi seat sir i can hear u"
but he'll insist and even threat if u don't listen.......best is pretend to be comfortable and go through it.......
Marks?u think it matters to people under soul terror , mental discomfort!!!!!
And mind it after all this u don't knw the answer u get the same grade as the boy beside-incase the higher marks is genuine anyways u have no idea what she's been through, atleast 6mnths of lab and viva + exam invigilator......it's a big deal and u don't know it unless ur the roasted chicken.
Wait ur lucky to have escaped but life has a better depth for us and we can always use our experience-
haven't u seen the recent stats where on an avg. women have higher IQ to men?
-This was just a small inkling bt i guess it's challenging
A tiffany twisted tail/tale.........


just a nother line__
i'm proud to be a woman!

Innocence

Would not have noticed you,
Had it not been for your innocence,
How could you be here
And yet not be a part?

In this gamble,
There is no place for you,
The bets aren't fair,
To please your senses,
Whether you crib,cry or pray;

Stop that,
You're bothering the boss,
He's not fair,
And not to be messed with,
Not with women at all.....

Your hair's so ruffled,
Deep inside you must have had a fight,
Protest is not the way here,
I'd like to know what you're doing here,
In this dirt where I belong?

Savagely they will make you,
Run or you will be ruined,
And be wasted like me,
Why are you so innocent?
Don't you see the world here is not fair......

The more you stay,
The more I don't know why,
I keep looking at you,
Your ruffled black hair,
Those serene eyes,
Those red plush cheeks,
And the chastity you bring into this place.....
No.....No.....I'm making a mistake,
This place is not for you,
Before your dreams are shattered,
Before I'm called upon
To cause you the harm myself!

Alas!I see the boss being himself,
He's summoned me for the task,
I told you,
It was getting late for you.........

I see you asleep
And with it's break should come your end,
The chastity in you will waver away,
I cannot bear it again,
The death of yet another dream!

"Run, the window's your only escape,
I'll save myself I promise,
Just go!...Run"

Those innocent eyes kept waiting....
A wait that would never end,
He had lied,
The boss was too humble to let him go......
The orchid leaves turned moist,
Her tears not dry yet,
Some dreams saved,
Not slayed this time,
But at a much greater price paid.......

lies

lies

Abandon was not what I'd do,
Betrayal was not own,
Still however when I try to defy you,
I cannot look into my eyes....
Why did you lie
For another time
Tell me you were true
I'll believe you
Once again just like sometime ago.......


I saw you again on the way
I said a lot but I meant so little
I never knew
Or I cared of losing you
But then you kept mute
Not a word to defend
Your head bent down
Hands folded......
So you had lied
There was my time
To stop defying you from the world
To know my belief was no more to be
You stopped me but never said
It was a lie........
Why did you lie
For another time
Tell me you were true
I'll believe you
Once again just like sometime ago.......

How can I say no
To the sorry souls
Who stood by to say you were a lie,
A fantasy,
When today you made your stay,
I've tried to defy
I cannot look into my eyes....
Why did you lie
For another time
Tell me you were true
I'll believe you
Once again just like sometime ago.......

Alas I walk over the church pebbles
Which I thought would be with you,
The dream you said would be true
Then what happened to you?
I've tried to defy
I cannot look into my eyes....
Why did you lie
For another time
Tell me you were true
I'll believe you
Once again just like sometime ago.......
It's not just you I'm numb too.....
A life with you
now a life without you
Knowing that you weren't true.....

lurking eyes

Into those eyes i'm lost,
And the marathon I thought I must run,
Should the king know it is you,
I will lose both of you;

I turn not to see you,
Neither do you,
Yet we do,
Where's the confusion?
I have a race to run;

Once again the lucrative breeze,
blows ur hair high,
nice,dark and long,
And those spanish eyes......
I'm lost.....
I'm almost done,
no more race to run;

But wait in them I see,
I do see the tear arrive,
It says I must win,
How can I let those eyes be numb,
Those lively ones.....that turn shy,
I like your hair still floating in the air,
I'll be back,
With the race won......
I promise.......
Do you believe me?
....
Your silent.....
Your eyes can speak
And i'm hopeful :)




......aha!just like that :P  -priyaani