Tuesday 29 December 2015

The truth of humanity-Death

Here I am at the end of my wits,
Embraced by fear,
The venture here it ends,
The moment I started,
I knew it would come,
All I did was to find a way to escape,
And today I see it in the eyes,
Humans were born to feel the fire of death.

Life is a gift,
We rejoice, celebrate,pray & bless,
In our eyes does not live the fear of the end,
Perhaps we do not want to give into the strength of the devil,
But it hits us all,
In a matter of seconds,
What we love the most may be withdrawn from us,
Without our concent,
Reminding us how petty we are,
In the hands of this universe,
A tiny little spec,
Who's feelings don't matter,
Not anymore.
And you awaken to the truth.....
The truth of death,
The truth of our helplessness,
The truth that we too will merge into mere dust,
The truth that we are no one.....

Sunday 27 December 2015

Empty Volumes

Have you heard the waves hit your soul hard and the world's harsh noise clump in? 
That's empty Volumes....Space enough for melody but no wires to sound!



I am awakened to a sudden sound,
It was distant and low
But is gaining on more
It bangs on the door loud and cracks Through the small crevices even air can't escape,
In a matter of minutes,
I am insecure, threatened, vulnerable.....

Nothing and no one is around,
And yet the sound was deafening at the party yesterday night,
I won't call the numbers,
Cause they won't come,
The world has become a place of rejoice,
Only few can handle the strength to help,
It is easier to make excuses,
And harder to understand sincerity.....

The snow has frozen on the window panes,
Leaving the crystal shape like magic on glass,
It might just be the best I can see before the door gives way and I am dead,
Or maybe not?
I hear the distant sound once again coming close.....I recline into my mind while the sound gets deafening again.....

By my side I notice a book and an empty coffee mug,
All I enjoyed during the day,
Will I wake up to another one,
Or will fear engulf me......?

I can feel the emptiness within me,
The room for so much to play, to make melody,
Yet the loss of creativity, the music will not be made,
The melody may never be played,
I sigh at the 'Empty Volumes' within me


Have I been able to explain the concept empty Volumes? Let me know your thoughts below & interpretations

Friday 6 November 2015

A shot at True Love



"What's love that's not passionate,
That doesn't warm the cheeks red,
That doesn't give you sleepless nights,
That you let go?"

'True love' feels like your mother's bosom,
Your father's loving hand,
Your sister's kiss,
It feels safe like family,
Gushing with the juice of a traveller's soul,
With all the adrenaline pushing you head strong,
It's nothing less than exciting,

And no matter how many times you've been shot,
Everytime it's as fresh as the first time....
It's always the first time
And you secretly hope maybe this is true love....

My heart goes shalala...
We all know when that happens,
Sometimes we are afraid to give in,
It makes us so vulnerable,
Yet you have to give it all;

Most people die without finding a soul mate,
We may too, we know that,
But what matters is what are we ready to do if we do find such a prized possession?

Can we choose the path of fear again,
Go forward and claim what is our only chance?
Can we give up the virtual surrounding,
That took us so many years to build?

Some people would give anything to have a shot at true love,
But not everyone has a chance,
What will you do for yours?
Will you let him/her go?

I don't know,
I think I'll give it all,
I will expect the same,
Only then would it be true, isin't it?
I'm certain it will be an exciting journey....
And I will not let it walk away,
Only I expect the same,
You only need to turn your head back,
And find my eyes......they say so much more than I ever can :)

I'll tell you sometime what it is to be an introvert. It's more exciting than you can begin to think....who else gets to have dinner with the stars,talk to the moon and be blown away with a gentle breeze!

Sunday 1 November 2015

A Daughter's World in her father's eyes

It is not new how the love of a father & daughter is eternal. Let's take a closer look.



I once asked my father 'Would you love a Son more bapi (father in bengali)?'

He looked at me, smiled softly and said, "I have not known to love this way, I do not know how I could love more than this. It is not a son I would have but a daughter I would miss, I may have done injustice to him in some way.

Look at you darling, you have done so much, learnt so much even taught me sometimes so much. You are an engineer today, all grown up but what bothers you is if I would love a boy child more-this little joy can only be found in a daughter.

When you were a kid you told me how the world didn't matter, just my opinions did & anything you did was because you loved me and wanted to see me happy. They were wise words I realized much later.

You have worked hard, never staked my name and understood the silent prayers when we were battling with finance. You didn't want an expensive mobile but you mentioned you didn't like them when all your friends had one. All this without me having to say anything. You always made me feel proud of raising you. I cannot think what blessings brings me to 2 blessed daughters.

Maybe some people distribute sweets when they have a son but for me it was the joy of being a father & I couldn't have had a better journey.

So, no I think whatever has happened to me with 2 daughters, I want it to happen to me everytime in every life."


"You make my name proud!"

If you could see my eyes, you would realize I had just won the world. Nothing on earth could make me happier. I own the world....all of it :D.

And that's what a daughter's world is made up of.




P.S.-If you are not Indian, this will help you understand why I asked this question. In India and many other places Sons are celebrated while daughters aren't. It is very evident in the cultural functions/rituals and even upbringing. Fortunately my parents were never like that and also I don't have a brother which probably is a good thing. But since my father's reply, I don't think like that any more.

Wednesday 16 September 2015

The 2nd Choice

"Do you remember who landed 2nd on moon? No, no one does because there's just one we remember, the 1st one. No one remembers the 2nd One because it's a choice.....a 2nd Choice!"

This is a story of sibling love, a kind of love which is jealous, possessive and obsessive in certain ways but the best part is its true! I tell you never love like this, it hurts....and may be just too much


It is one thing to love,
Another to fall in love,
Still different to be made to fall in love,
Sibling love is the third;

You stay together,
You play together,
Your touch each other,
And then you kiss each other goodnight,
Each night with a gentle kiss,
And they uncannily sense your wet bed,
Always;

And then you fight together,
Pin one on the wall,
Cry when the other is hurt,
Pray for their sickness to leave,
And crave for your room no more;

Love, deep love,
You fight like animals,
But you become inseparable,
You can call her a bitch,
But if the world raised a finger,
You make sure they are dead,
You love her fiercely with all the imperfections,
The bond is made and you swear yourself,
No one can replace this,
It is a beautiful love;

But does this bond ever snap?
Does it ever burden itself?
For the love that is true,
Often hurts like hell.....

And it hurts when you become the 2nd choice

Friday 11 September 2015

Caged




The invisible walls are growing,
Crowding around me,
Pressing on me,
Wiping away any inch of hope,
That may slowly creep into my mind;

I shout but it rebounds,
I scream in pain and it cannot be heard,
I bleed but it cannot be seen,
All the world looks back at me,
Like a world looking at a petty nomad
Thinking why a parrot should flap within a golden cage?
Where it is fed, bathed and looked after so well....

I am going insane,
As the walls press against me,
Higher and higher they grow,
Fading my voice inside the cage
I flap like a chicken before its wings are cut
I bleed like the Ganges of blood
And yet all of it subsides,
The world turns a blind eye
And my endeavor remains within the cage
The cage I created for myself,
When I flew down to a comfortable perch,
Certain the nomadic life was done,
Knowing full well the faith of my mates...
The Golden Cage is never shunned,
You must flap your wings until you're done!

Are you in a Golden Cage?

Monday 17 August 2015

When I See You Smile

This is a story of true love, and yes by now I have come to think it can happen just once! For me it was the first human I came in contact with-my mother.

It is said sons are close to mothers,
And daughters to their fathers,
For me then it was a different story all together,
Thanks 'Ma' for being there, that is enough for me...

Which ever place I visit on earth,
With whom ever I spend my time,
It is never as splendid as the one with you,
It never makes me as happy as that...

You are that one person,
Just one, to whom I can rip myself open,
And feel no shame or anxiety,
No ego, no self-esteem,
It just feels like home!
Oh, that peace, that incomparable peace
The peace I cannot even find in the pious priest

For you  to smile, i'll do anything,
I'm afraid it is not true for another,
But for you,
No matter what it means,
Even if its giving up my dreams,
I can do it to see you smile,
I can face my worst fears,
If only I know that is to keep you safe,
Anything i'll do,
Anytime, Just say

You are my one true love I have loved for now past 25 years!


A Small Note-Maybe You Could Help


My mother called me last week to ask for help, she wanted some money. When I lifted the call, I only wanted to be sure if all is fine. All was apart from a student of hers. She is a teacher and a student of her class had relapsed 'blood cancer'. My sweet mother asked for help-I would give the world to give her what she asked of me. We donated, spared as much as we could and I knew it wasn't enough for that 8 year old girl. So, I wished to ask you for help. You know I could do anything for my mother & this is just a small part.

Treatment paper from Tata Medical Centre is attached at the end (for proof)
From my understanding she will undergo a Stem Cell Transplant, which hopes for normal blood cell formation, this can be disrupted in the future and replace as in this case. However this is a possible cure.

Payments are 2 modes - cheque/online

For online payments, please drop a mail to priyaanivaanime@gmail.com with a printscreen of your transaction, so I could present this as the amount paid towards the little girl's treatment. From my understanding, it is a common trust and to ensure your money is used for this girl, we need proof.
http://www.tmckolkata.com/tmc/index.php

For offline payments, you need to write a cheque in the name of  'Tata Medical Centre Trust'  , mark 'A/C payee' and send it by 30th Aug,15 to:

Mrs. S.Ash
No. 1, Convent Lane, Tangra, Kolkata, West Bengal 700015

We are collecting the cheque and depositing it on your behalf a the trust, yes my old parents are proactively helping-shouldn't we do a little bit? For proof, take a photo of your cheque(after writing) and keep it with you safe.

Video (Tata Medical Centre, Kolkata)



Proof of patient:




An 8-year old deserves a chance to live, a chance we have all got without this struggle, let us help her. I have & I think even you will. For any queries drop me a  mail on priyaanivaanime@gmail.com


If you can't help, i'm still thankful, can you pass it to your friends, so they can help? If you are saving it for yourself, then let me tell you, life is so unpredictable that even Bill Gates can face crisis and he knows that. Instead hope when you need, we are there to contribute generously.& pray we are never here

Sunday 5 July 2015

In love with your eyes-Zayn

This is a story about 'Zayn Malik' , former One Direction Member. I'm not a die hard fan but when I checked his wikipedia, there was a moment of virtual love, his eyes spoke and i'm in love with your eyes :). Crazy stupid, care to read?

The moment I hit my keyboard,
I saw a memory splash on the pages,
You were alive in millions of hearts,
As a memory and all those millions were moved,
Knowing the vastness of your personality,
That could move an ocean of humans,
I quickly googled by your name,
To be there on this encyclopedia page.

What was different,
And I barely notice such asset in a star,
The eyes were speaking,
No wonder it spoke to the millions,
No wonder you swayed them all,
And I was here,
Staring stupidly at those deep ocean eyes,
Maybe it was a passing thought,
But I think it was a moment of virtual love.

They said something,
Not very happy,
A sense of reservation teamed with pain,
I wish I could cure that pain,
But i'm but just an author,
Who likes to think so,
And scribbles on the go,
And I also know,
Your eyes they speak,
They speaketh with me,
With millions in this world,
I don't know what happened,
I don't know why you moved on,
I just know why you sing so well,
It's all there in your eyes,
And I hope you know 'you are beautiful'

Life doesn't get on without you,
We just don't read between the lines!



Sunday 28 June 2015

I'm okay..

You walked into me with your girl, she secretly smirked and you asked, "You Okay?"
"I'm Okay.."


You were acting cold for a few days,
I tried to understand,
Gave you all the space you said you often didn't get,
But there's a hint of guilt in your eyes,
When you ask if i'm okay
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time

You choose to sit beside me with your girl,
And behave like your the best friend of mine,
And I know what you did within,
Maybe it's because of the hint of guilt in your eyes?
When you ask if i'm okay
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time

You post the best pics with your girl,
They surprise me with the shapes they make,
A heart, romantic pose or something else,
I thought you were not virtual,
You didn't like the buzz around the social bee,
Maybe you also said you liked it private,
So private it didn't get to me....or are you confused like so many other times?
But there's a hint of guilt in your eyes,
When you ask if i'm okay
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time

Even if I cry around the next corner,
And I miss you like hell,
You'll never know,
Because whatever I said stands,
It's private now, and you don't have a pass no more,
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time
I'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine.......

Tuesday 16 June 2015

A silent lover's battle

This is a story of love not war....
for the ones don't say but do, for the ones who speak only by their mind & soul,for the ones like me

It has been a problem with me,
Since childhood I can remember,
I always felt too much and said very little,
Sometimes nothing at all,
I am too shy with the matters of the heart,
But within I feel the fire roar;



Love-A matter so sacred to the heart,
I like it sincere, separate from the crowd,
Where I can look into your eyes,
And read the truth in them,
The unsaid words,
So, I wait,
I wait for my silence to meet yours,
When the crowd will break,
And we will share what we mutually sense.

I must agree though,
The society has successfully gotten this into me,
I patiently wait for the first move you make,
For I am scared more than you right now,
The rest is mine, my commitment is done,
It is not questionable, it is divine,
All you must ask is but once,
If I would like to come?..........

Love-A matter so sacred to the heart,
I like it sincere, separate from the crowd,
Where I can look into your eyes,
And read the truth in them,
The unsaid words,
So, I wait,
I wait for my silence to meet yours,
When the crowd will break,
And we will share what we mutually sense.

And I will walk the distance,
Far & wide, round and round,
Along with you,
Wherever it is,
Only in the end,
You must make sure,
You keep your words,
And your knees don't fall weak,
You don't feel tired to walk those extra miles,
Where we can count the stars,
And hear our breadths,
Where I can see your silhouette,
Against the dessert sand,
Where my hair blows wild,
And you caress their beauty,
Where there is no fear,
Only trust by being their for one another,
Even before you say,
I am already yours;

Love-A matter so sacred to the heart,
I like it sincere, separate from the crowd,
Where I can look into your eyes,
And read the truth in them,
The unsaid words,
So, I wait,
I wait for my silence to meet yours,
When the crowd will break,
And we will share what we mutually sense,
When you will kiss me like the world will end,
And we can hold tight knowing that moment is all that matters.........

Monday 15 June 2015

Being Me-It's not hard but it's not easy I promise

'An Indian Girl', a stamp is enough to add to your barriers, I do not feel it erodes a lady's life, it does the same to men to different extents. An Indian woman is not an idea, it is a rule we live each day. Wearing jeans brings earthquakes, our hot pants are better in the cupboard, expressing yourself makes you a 'bad girl',freedom is do whatever you want inside the house, protecting the land is not your forte, karate is not needed just call your rapers brother-Now Some People Are Upset with the GenY going mad!



Every day will be judgmental, every day you will see failures decide for your faith, at the day end you will realize the time has slipped and your love has walked away never to return. Every day is not  a new opportunity, it is Me who causes this pain to myself. I am solely responsible for each moment that I breadth & decide to do so. Being free is not the solution, it is an escape plan I never choose. Some places I think like I left back my dreams, I paid too much for the other part but how would I choose between the two? Some choices are difficult, never right or wrong....

I do a decent job being me. Not much, striving to do & experiment every day & i'm lucky to have that chance. I'm an emotional fool, heart affairs are overly sensitive to me and not all boys interest me, even if they do I court shy. Yet I must be married by a deadline they say. I'm tried of this struggle, yet i'm fighting a battle not just with the society, but with the monitors of it who are my parents too. It's not easy to make your point. We all (Indian Ladies) do a great job I believe. So much, it deserves some thought. You'll see more details.

I request the guys out there to make this easier for us. I say i'm not rocket science, but it does need some patience. Just try to understand us, you may fail but if you try that's good enough. We are complicated, not that much though as much as portrayed, we grew up in separate society laws,privileges, circumstances. Let's make your daughter's life better, let's not give her a reason to be Feminist, let's make it happen.

22 years and nothing has changed, the day you realize the world will go on without you just the way it is, you'll run for your dreams. But some of us live in a dream where the world needs us, where we decide sometime not quite the best. No, i'm not selfless but you know what-i'm me & it's not easy I promise.



Some great songs to brighten your mood:

"I cannot make it to the end, I can only push a stone, maybe it will knock your door?"-priyaani

Sunday 31 May 2015

The Train Journey ~ that lasted a lifetime

I always liked train journeys more than flights, flights are so busy and you are at the destination without the journey ever touching you, like a port to the final destination. While trains are slow, they touch every corner before you get off, the wait is long...wherein each moment the craving of reaching stacks up greatly, the small talks on the way with the random passengers who inspire you & show you a glimpse of the local life around....it's a journey. Of all of them, this maybe why they have become a bigger part of my life!

I'm on my way home from work, a long night & a day it will be from Dehra to Calcutta. Lucky seat, the guy sitting opposite to me is really grabbing my attention, he has run to& fro to the door exactly 10 times in the last 5 minutes. There's another man clad in all black, charming no less and keeps his calm just too much, he keeps looking all around & doesn't react when our eyes meet, that's a little offensive! A beautiful lady is on the window side and managing a cute little baby too well. Her sister is on the next compartment, she had mentioned before leaving her baby here. The train looks awfully crowded for the off-season, travelling has become luxury now-a-days, no more necessity.



"Excuse me Sir, can I see your ticket and Id ?", the TT has started his checks this way down. It is now that I noticed a new person had replaced the hyper man, this man seemed aged, unshaven and coughed like whopping cough. Maybe he was travelling for treatment after all. The TT finished his round and the Hyper man or his luggage nothing appeared. I was starting to think his seat was mistaken, unless I reached the restrooms before retiring to bed. I saw the man apologizing to a woman for taking too long in the restroom and standing near the open compartment door. The light shone on his face, he seemed to me a fairly young lad of 20, with stress marked on every unformed wrinkle. I slid behind the divider and watched quietly. He retraced his path into the restroom, latched himself out unless the next bang was heard and everything was repeated as moments before.

This intrigues me and something inside me rendered me fearless. I took the side beside him in front of the open compartment door, he looked at me and smiled like a stranger would, making it obvious I was the only one who had noticed him. In my mind ran a string of thought, each crashing into another and building up a chain reaction. It occurred to me last if he would bring out a gun and shoot if I told him I had seen him hide there when he pulled me close and I heard a loud clank. We saw a bullet on the floor. He clutched my arm really hard and latched the restroom behind, I was too shocked to react, no drama does not hit you when you've been threatened of your life. "Some one missed a shot, why are you here?", I looked back even more stunned, did I know him? "Look I mean, are you a detective or something, I've seen you noticing everyone notorious".
"Are you a gangsta?", I blurted.
"No, otherwise. I can't say, you should go, how would you go, they think you are with me and you are in danger"
"I can see that! I'm no one, just mango man, i'll go, it's stuffy in here and don't know if you are to be trusted", staring straight into his sparkling eyes.
"You don't have much choice but I can tell if you stay. You may not believe me though", he replied plainly.
As mentioned I didn't have much of an option, I resented this place but his eyes were genuine, he didn't seem to lie-I had to trust my gut. So I went with it.

"Look I won't harm anyone, I want to save. That guy right there, the one in Black opposite your seat is a suicide bomber. He has his wife and children with him but they don't know, he is Haider. I have not been able to identify all his troop, more will be there apart from bombers who will make sure everything is on track, like the one who shot you. Some one on their troop was a friend of mine, he can't shoot me but he thought I had a troop and maybe tried to kill you so. I don't know, i'm only guessing!", he looked at me with dread. I was happy moments back, ignorant of the future, now that I knew it, I felt worse. I didn't really know how to act, I wasn't skilled but I doubt that could help now. There was a gang of bombers on the train and we would blow up in some time.

"Are you there?",he called out a little loud and I shrieked.
"How long?", I asked him.
"I don't know, I need their plan, right now i'm just guessing, we need to stop this!"
"You have a gang too?"
"No, I meant you and me, now that you know?", he replied looking at me questioningly.
"Ofcourse, who are you?"
"A Suspended IPS, my initials are 'J.A', since more information can be harmful, i'd prefer you know just that much", he looked a little shy now after a considerable time. Drama didn't hit me yet.
"What about your friend?"
"He's on the other side, he left our service for the right reasons but joined the wrong side, he's my best friend and he'll never hurt me, he has a dragon tattoo,be careful"

I wasn't sure if his friend was that loyal, his trust was unbreakable ofcourse, I closed the door behind me and reached my train birth. Sleep was the last thing I could think of, I looked down at the little baby twitch and soon after cried out. The lady patted her but she refused to calm down. I saw the man look through the corner of his eyes but he didn't come to help. I thought it seemed he regretted his decision. I helped her out, we got chatting, we whispered and I while the baby cried she told me small things about her village, how their lives had changed when her husband was outcast for something he had not done. They seemed like a happy family. I saw the man caste a glance at me, I did earn some more trouble. I got a few more details and rushed back to the end. I knocked, called out 'J.A', mentioned some details and he was out. I gave him some idea and he said all that was small talk, of no importance. I hated this ofcourse but I went back silently.

This time, on my birth I heard whispers. I stuck my ear close to the divider, I could hear some words 'It's not time, wait, 9 AM' in local language. To reconfirm I threw my bag at the man opposite. Immediately someone from the adjacent seat ran out to find out if he was okay. The man didn't reveal I had thrown the bag which surprised me.

This time my information was well appreciated. The bad part was a massive crowd on the train was their gang, distributed miserably well. I had also guessed, the police could not help on a running train, the next station was far far away, the work would be done by then. I didn't call home, I called my best friend and spoke to her about college and laughed like never before. On hanging up I cried profusely, J clasped me when the clock struck 8:56, "We'll can make it", he said with a smile. I knew noone would. I clasped him back, trying to hold on to the last human nearby.

When I gained consciousness, the train had stalled, beside was a beautiful water body, people were all over, a small blast did happen but the major plan had failed. I saw J and called to him, I was not hurt a bit, J was staggering towards me with the baby girl. The unshaven man in Black felt for his pocket and placed the gun in line to shoot me. Before I realized, J had jumped, I caught the baby and the lady but J had fallen, he was shot. The man jumped into the water and burst. J said, "That was my best friend!" and he smiled.

A lump formed in the throat, I didn't know much of this person but little was enough to salute his spirit, I didn't have much of a choice but I had fallen in love with a guy a respected just too much. Walking away was hard but it was all I could do, hoping the future had more such men & women of brevity in store.

This is why I love trains, maybe I wait for J to be back some day, or to save the world someday!

Sunday 19 April 2015

Refreshing test music

Here's a refreshing rhythm created by various beats and other stuff. Sounds contemporary, let me know how ti is?



Sunday 15 February 2015

Some nostalgic music from 'Marina & The Diamonds'

The family jewels was trending and why not, it's the 5th birthday of this awesome album.
The lyrics are woefully meaningful, woeful because they are the truth the heart knows but cannot confide. Loving the lyrics and resounding them in my ears. Here's the best ones, so you can listen to them once again now-

Here's the lyric for 'Are you satisfied' & below video embed for this and 'numb'. What are your favorites, comment or email, i'll get those up in here then!



"Are You Satisfied?"


I was pulling out my hair the day I got the deal
Chemically calm
Was I meant to feel happy
That my life was just about to change?

One life pretending to be
The cat who got the cream
Oh, everybody said,
"Marina is a dreamer."
People like to tell you what you're gonna be
It's not my problem if you don't see what I see
And I do not give a damn if you don't believe
My problem, it's my problem
That I never am happy
It's my problem, it's my problem
On how fast I will succeed

Are you satisfied with an average life?
Do I need to lie to make my way in life?

High achiever don't you see
Baby, nothing comes for free
They say I'm a control freak
Driven by a greed to succeed
Nobody can stop me

Cause it's my problem
If I wanna pack up and run away
It's my business if I feel the need to
Smoke and drink and sway
It's my problem, it's my problem
If I feel the need to hide
And it's my problem if I have no friends
And feel I want to die

Are you satisfied with an average life?
Do I need to lie to make my way in life?

Are you satisfied with an easy ride
Once you cross the line
Will you be satisfied?

Sad inside
In this life
Unsatisfied praying
Sad inside
In this life
Unsatisfied waiting

Are you satisfied with an average life
Do I need to lie to make my way in life

Are you satisfied with an easy ride
Once you cross the line
Will you be satisfied?

Black, white
(Are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Black, white
(Are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Black, white
(Are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Black, white
(Are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)



Saturday 14 February 2015

Happy Valentine's

Hello,



A very happy valentine's day to you. I hope you really enjoy the day. And if you're sad because you're single or didn't get the roses-well I don't think you need to be. With passing days, we are getting busier by the day and losing the small moments in life we need to enjoy and not able to spend time with the best people as much as needed. This is what valentine's is for! A day to express our gratitude, to tell them how much they mean to us, and for that spending some time today is a great anecdote!

here are 2 great articles I found, you might want to read them-
Forget Romance: 2015 Valentine's Day Shopping Trends Toward Family and Friends

Don't forget to spread the word of love, best of luck for the day. Love and care for your loved ones, don't wait for the day when it's too late. Its now, today.

Saturday 7 February 2015

Some awesome & interesting great Ted Talks I watched!

Courtesy-http://www.learnoutloud.com/content/blog/archives/2011/11/100_best_ted_talks.php


1.How To Find The Right Partner?
A short a beautiful video, explaining small science behind love.


2.The mathematics of love
Some things that maths suggest and even some online dating sites use!


3.Well educated mind Vs well formed mind by Shashi Tharoor



4.Honest liars -- the psychology of self-deception

Thursday 5 February 2015

Parent Issues...??....

I don't know if this is common but its been the same for me ever since birth. My parents and I can never agree or accept something we think differently on. I always try to keep my cool but recently our trials have collapsed and it ends in persistent 'Hmm's. I hate this but its like a part now. I know i'll grow out of it as i'm working on it. I thought maybe there are some of you, some who are as weird as me and don't mind sharing this secret with me. Well, the truth is we love no less, however there is this line of disagreement.

Here, I need some advice over this issue, anything is appreciable.




Life is not a Breeze:

Maybe some people just wait for that one day, like I do for that one day when suddenly the traffic is in millions or trillions or something huge :p .However, everytime such sinful ideas do come, I just know nothing happens just like that. And its good, I mean what's the point of working if it has not credits, moreso, its a great treat to learn and keep trying. Its always more enjoyable when we get something after those sweaty hands and painful chores.


But It can be Great:

All you need is to work towards it. Miracles happen but they need time, intention and lots of work. I mean Michelle (aka Michelle Phan) didn't just make it, she took the risk back when we didn't. Luckily it got big but it was after real persistence.


Parent Encounters:
Okay, so to the point, I really don't have a solution, so i'm avoiding this all together. I'd like some advice. I generally keep conversations short to avoid trouble but it gets painful at times because I literally need to pour my heart sometimes and I do. So a deep conversation is an necessary but I want to tackle this disagreement between us better. I mean we are all different, our beliefs are different, we can't be the same but that's the point. However, being tolerant to each other and their beliefs is as essential. How can this balance be achieved with parents? Any advice?


Monday 26 January 2015

Top 3 techniques for knowing yourself better in Psychology

I couldn't lie how I loved writing and pouring out my heart on this blog. Well, say what, I just read this is a part of psychological treatments. No wonder it worked so well in my deadly days!

We're going to learn today-


Why do we need to learn?

There is this desire in each of us that we cannot accept barely. It is the unscrupulous, hated, anxious self i.e. our unconscious self. There resides many impressions, each of which have had some impact on us at certain time in life. Some of them are our moral responsibilities to restrain eg. murder. But if we repress, it increases in us the 'pent up' emotion. Thus there is a way to do it well, techniques to clear it out-Self Analysis. This on the whole will help you know yourself better, thus increasing confidence, security and self satisfaction.



Top 3 Techniques o Self-Analysis:


  1. The Autobiographical Method

    This is a story of your life, everyone has one & it doesn't take an author. Contrary to your belief, every one our lives can be a great movie. It is full of facts and secrets that we only know. This autobiography shall be only for you. You must secure its position and in it write all you have had. Start with your youngest years, the people you know, how any situation occurred,how you reacted to it, what were your emotional reactions, what were your thoughts,your degree of responsibility towards the situation,the secrets. Any situation where you wanted to act differently, jot down all the factors associated with it and justify your behavior. you must reasonably fight this case in your behalf and come to a conclusion. Once you have decided, your head gets clear and life easy.
    eg. prob:I wished I had cracked the medical exam if only I had not fallen sick
          soln:I will do it this next year
  2. The Questionnaire Method

    Jot down a list of all the life-problems you have. Then write the answers to each of them. Even if you don't know, write what you think is best solution because here you have to write an answer, don't worry sometimes when we are not sure, it is the best solution. This is a different way of approaching the first method but if you put together all the answers, you get your autobiography-kind of.
  3. Free Association Method

    This is talking out the cause of your troubles. The psychiatrist urges to talk on the problem areas like vengeance and more the person speaks, more is he cured. We sometimes have a chain of thoughts and currently stick to only the resultant of despair or frustration. Slowly when the thoughts are revealed out of our system, it already gets out.
    This similar thing happens when we recite it in a poem,blog,song etc. Expression is thus very important.

courtesy reference-Helping Yourself With Psychiatry by Dr.Frank S. Caprio, M.D.


Let me know which of them you tried and how did you find this insight into yourself? Share in comments below.


Saturday 24 January 2015

Not another 'Pimple'...our girly issues & great video from Michelle Phan added

I decided to make this post a little informative. Here's little to learn and know.


Here's  a small story:

I once had a big crush on a next-door guy. We had front facing windows and we had a secret text for communication. We were the best of friends and now I had a crush on him. When our big day came, I was going to tell him this at the park we often met. I had a bad day then, a pimple and I didn't go to the park. The next day, he had a girl with him. We walked together but I knew he had his girl. I missed my chance. It was not just the pimple but I was feeling down for it to some extent. It really was more coincidence. 10 years later, we met in a new city and he told me that in his teens he admired me so much and that I would never agree to be his girl. It was the 'Out of my league' concept. I only repented that day ever since. 
Sometimes things are out of control but pimples aren't. Small things that we do for ourselves like taking care of ourselves, help us love and know ourselves more. 'Pimples' are a part of external beauty and do not define us in any way. However, looking after ourselves help us achieve the best of our inner and outer self. You will fall in love with yourself, you are a lovely person, you should care for it. 

Types of Pimples-


  1. Blackhead
  2. Whitehead
  3. Infectious lesions
If you are at No. 3-'infectious lesions' you need to run to the skin care doctor. They are highly infected and therefore appear scary. I don't get them, so i'm lucky but I do get a lot of trouble from No. 1 and 2 i.e. Blackhead and Whitehead. Just like the name, the portion we see, the head is of the color 'black' or 'white'. We all hate it!

It's usually not a health problem and is suggestive of hormone level changes which leads to extra oil secretion. Some people are more prone to it while others aren't.


Solutions to Pimples-

  1. Keep your face clean
  2. Keep it well nourished
  3. Avoid clogged pores
  4. Let them be.
    If you pinch them, they will stain your face. If you don't, some of them disappear once your hormone levels have changed back.

Common problems (pimples):

  1. Leaves scars as I tamper with it
  2. One leads to many at times
  3. Itchy, red areas
  4. Agitated skin if I apply makeup
  5. Results in my lack of confidence

Day-to-day trouble it brings:

  1. Postpone my dates for acquaintance or interviews as i'm not very confident
  2. Lesser attractive to dates, however virtual that sounds
  3. Sometimes messing with dust swells it up further
  4. College life gets a little dull as everyone notices it weirdly
  5. Can't wear my spectacles if it's over my nose bridge
  6. There is a oily smell over the face 


This is written as an entry to the competition hosted by Garnier Pure Active Neem. I have not used it, so I cannot recommend it. However I have used commercial Neem products and they have done good to my skin. Here are a few links for more details on this product:-



Here's a great toothbrush video from my fav makeup artist & entrepreneur Michelle Phan

courtesy-Michelle Phan <3 her


Do you face similar skin problem or different ones? Share and comment below.

Sunday 18 January 2015

bargain

Falling in love with a friend can be awkward, specially if its not reciprocated. From this time there are few options-what would you do, would you still remain a friend just to stay close? Or give it up for you cannot stay and see him as someone else's?






This is a battle
Between you and me,
Even though you know not,
You will fight,
For it is in our nature,
To defend before we fend
And I will lose a dying battle,
Like every other instance;

The problem is I will leave,
This last time,
For I cannot share what is just mine,
I cannot share even if it's not mine;
I just didn't learn How To Bargain!

The course is simple,
The rules unchanged,
The game will be judged same,
Only you have another name;

Between friendship and love,
I couldn't be in dilemma anymore,
I told you the truth,
And I meant it the more,
Even if you didn't...

You didn't think necessary to descend,
From your seat of solitude,
Where 'Ego' lies beyond us;

So, As a friend I decline,
For I cannot promise,
I won't fall,
In Love again,
If I knew,
I wouldn't in the first place,
But since I have,
I will let you play the game,
And farewell now,
Since it's not just hard,
But pretty weird,
To be the diplomat,
For i'm neither a friend nor a Lover;

I just didn't learn How To Bargain!





How do you feel about this? I'd love to know in comments below.

Saturday 10 January 2015

Top 6 blogs you loved in 2014

Here's your loved content, all the poems and stories close to our hearts. Click the Topics to read the story.



1. I don't know you but I believe in your dreams!

-An inspiring collection of pics for all those who have a dream and are chasing it!






2.My Song-'Coming home this Christmas'

- A home recorded song on 2014 Christmas for our college sweet hearts, thank you for loving it so much <3






3.  'Reflection' - A short song poem

- Describes the power of silence that a girl uses to be heard and it reverberates after her life. A short poem, may adieu to rhyme not rhythm.





4. Soul Departure - romantic take

-Found your soul mate? She did too, yet they have to part. On this heart breaking journey she opens her heart into words and we see a world of innocence within.






5. A Christmas story - things to do on Christmas

-A pictorial guide to a few things we could do on Christmas to make it even better. The post ends with a hangout session recorded for a lovely Christmas & New Year '14






6. Just hold my hand

-A short Indie story with a happy romantic ending, loaded with a video teaser by British Airways



Some of the photographs are not mine, collected over the internet. Have some missing pic sources, sorry for that, will update of I do stumble on them.

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