Let go

deceased by the typing virus!
Let this not be true but I'l let go now for being too persuasive could leave us nowhere and yet I just don't know how- but I must


The mystery in you I saw,
Long before when things weren't wrong at all,
I don't crave solitude,
Yet I plunge in it so often and I can see you're right next to me;

What words do
I don't know,
For words I never had
For those humble beings who could tend to me,
Who knew just when I would cry,
When I would feel shy;

I've tried to cling on
After I noticed how your drifting was no solace,
And yet I feel your not what I thought,
The player, the casanova,
What others said to me
But what my soul betrays;

I didn't wish a passing smile,
For i'm not hungry for fame,
But all I thought was of it's chastity,
And with my faith I had ventured
Into depths never discovered before;

Yet,today I see things mistily fogged,
You never let things be plain,
But I loved the mystery,
It kept me guessing;
Yet I was never sure
Unless I thought you drifted for me,
I would have too if I were sure,
You are what you pretend;

And I will take the final plunge,
Life will never be different for me,
For what i'm worth I will have it,
None can testify it,
None can pull me back,
But some can stay beside,
As a support I will need to
Face reality again;

Persistent I've been,
Overstretched I have the rubber band,
Now i'm unsettled though,
But I must refrain,
In no other way shall I come to you,
I cannot it's a promise I made,
But keep no idea of underestimations,
As the person within was what I saw,
And it is not compromise that unites the perfect,
But the free spirits that can walk  parallel,
Yet never collide;

I leave it to you,
Apparent short communication will be all I'll do,
The rest I leave to you,
To decide whether you're the guy I saw,
Or the one the world did!
I want to question you right now,
To clarify what I might have missed,
But I must refrain,
I must let go..............