human futility1

Living life might be like breaking boulders to pave way in mountains! But there's just one thing that will save you the effort  rather i should say worth it.Yes u guessed it 'RELATIONS'!
When the bitter ice cold winds will break our bones there is just one word ('son!/daughter') which will force you to say 'what's up dad/mom?need some help i'm right here all there for you' silently wiping that tiny drop that slipped out.When something's bothering that mind of yours, getting on your nerves yet that shy you keeps secrets!Here you go...... a small hug and the thing is done you will blabber out the day's hardships.All that you couldn't till now.As if the butter just melt in the microwave!;) There's some heat in that thing some thing which is inexplicable (for i prove newton wrong as energy is supposed to be conserved!).On the other side if you've just had a strike your already in tears trying very hard to disagree with every single word and it gets all the more difficult!  

you should obviously be thinking of sights and scenes beyond my thoughts and it's my soul responsibility to stop you of this devastating end.This whole thing only revolves around a sacrifice for the family though
of course I  have no objections if throughout you want to feel such for your better half.........'better half' I will go into that controversy some other day!


I will merely share an experience which will make things clearer for those who r still unaware of this special fruit we bear which is priceless but has a limitation- it's lifespan!Of course some dashing bros have already thought this is an usual bluff an author uses.SMART ONES!in that case just change the underwritten gender smartly as u read on! :)
Ivira was still in those odd moods.Recently a lot of things had unwound the way she'd not like them to.It was too upsetting and she would have burst if only she could.She winked to herself trying to figure out her few lost kilos figure on the mirror just to clear up the messes.In vein! She was going mad and she had to hold it.Any catalyst and she would react.

slowly sleep walked in

She was facing realities some she knew but refused to believe.The resent ones had strewed up her sleeves and they were just to come alive like water gushing out of some vent in the so commonly seen municipal pipes!Wrapping herself tight in the white spreads , her fists holding tight every inch of it, she forcibly shut her eyes closed the gateway to her tears and tried some sleep.Unconsciously  she left the place into a whole new world where she felt she belonged more. But HO!why was this dark again?Her footsteps following those unheard voices while she consciously tried to revert her steps.Half sliding the door open she saw those 2 dark figures against that bring sun making gestures  that clearly stated they weren't happy.Like devil had taken over them and she the helpless being stayed witness to all.There wasn't much to say but that things were complex enough and that things weren't like she thought 'right & wrong'.She felt that despair in her heart that bore a hole so deep it almost killed her......and the sudden 'THUD'. 'OUCH' she screamed , she had fallen over.She woke up rubbing her eyes not feeling the physical pain much .......... somewhere those feelings were returning again and again!Today she had to stay alone, awake and be a TV mate.There was enough time for her to enjoy loneliness and yet today she would have given anything to have just one moment with her parents.How about ringing them?ha?How could she........she was upset with them.And the lamest feeling that caused her to fear the reality ,she challenged it! 




SHE was always the type invincible never succumb to the omnipotent.If you'd see her she'd be on your mind(like omnipresent) a week or 2!



You must be feeling what a devil she was!Indeed I bet I'd agree unless of course you've seen the other part.She was an epitome of truth,honesty,justice.Oh so all women are-here comes the SMARTYS again!Of course all women!
1) Firstly I'd be offended if you call this one a woman as she's a girl or a lady at most.
2)Secondly she was not just after her friends and bfs bossing away it was more in her little life and she actually started with herself.......she was almost perfect and definitely preached what she practised!What fatal madness had taken over her was simply because some injustice had been met out by mere humans and believe it the fault  lied on both sides.Thoughtfully she stirred her hot soup and eventually her soup stick was whether away and her finger sensed the heat ringing her back to the world.She decides to keep this little mystery a secret unless she's ready to say it.........and what right do i have to unfold so.But my inquisitive readers I can share with u the other side of the mirror.Let's see the refracted light's behaviour!

Ivira the hard core devil never believed in love,marriage.She thought all men were born flirts and women either angel/bitch!Beyond this outer she was something more.She never believed in things that she actually felt more than maybe anyone even u!She had a life which she lead not with her conditions rather i should say she was 'the oblivion part' in her own life.She breathed every breath in the name of a bond.She loved her parents and her sister immensely so much that she couldn't think of their end but solemnly pledged her life into any little errand that they may have wished.In return she was luckier than Cinderella she had the perfect family!They loved her back like anything.It was a difficult relation if u were to see it from my point.
for eg.She stand in front of a wonderful dress and glares at it, the moment her mother approaches her she flees for the escalator ! u guessed it the Bday gift it will make to her wardrobe.Surreal isn't it?She has a secret a pledge she bears deep within ......... i too know nothing of it but my friend i feel it must have somewhere some relation with her parents.She lives not her life.......it's a bargained life. Only human can be so unreasonable and the SMARTYS call it 'futile' and i 'human futility'!The last drop of soup she struggled with and goes on her just life and i adore her for being so perfect and in front i feel so little, so lame and so cowardly.