Holy Crime

I stand in front of the Bible, looking into the eyes of Jesus....

I still don't know if I am wrong or right,

Save it's too meagre to consider anymore,

When everything I had is lost,

I just stand on.....

Little did I know,

I should meet you,

In days of despair and hunger,

When you smiled at me

And gave me a hand,

I got a warm body,

And I went on....

It didn't seem true,

It didn't feel,

The way it should have,

I knew every breadth was afar,

You were not the one,

But it was a good deal,

I got food and shelter,

A home to say mine,

And I went on...

And on the way to Lake George,

I saw you into someone,

It caused some pain,

A home was gone again,

And I cried that day,

But never again,

It was a good deal,

I got food and shelter,

A home to stay,

And I went on...

However when she saw us,

I broke completely apart,

I think she lost a home,

That really she thought was hers,

I don't think I deserve all that,

But she did,

She didn't go on,

I tried to tell her,

But by then it was too late,

If not love, something serious,

Belonged within us....

So here I am, I could have been better, the good girl they ask me to be, but was I given a choice? I'd be dead by now, I know but it kills me to think what I did to someone so fine, maybe it's not worth any forgiveness, I only wish all this could be undone and I could wake up like a child in a home of my own !

5 ways to screw your date

Why would some one want to do that? I don't know, your reading the post, right? I'm in a completely bad mood and if I would go to a date today, yes I would do some of these for sure. If your in for some fun, you may follow it too.

P.S. :Beware do not piss off your serious dates, I cannot replace them :( . Or tell them you were only trying these out from here, I think if you can make them believe you, they might give it a good laugh or NOT.

You may like to note: It is so full if your search for it in google, however most of them didn't even give me a good laugh. They were serious advice :-o .....


FOR MEN:

1. Cheap Restaurant: Take your date to a cheap restaurant and tell her how you bring all your beloved dates to this place. Why? Because you don't want to spend much, incase they don't last......???
2. Bring on your Attitude : "Listen not so lovely lady, I didn't really think people so under my league really existed! Could you excuse me, I need to go to the washroom."
   Once your back, your date will be gone, if not you can go to the washroom again and this time elope.....!!
3. Tell her the truth of Architecture : "You know what, I've been noticing your face for a long time"
   She blushes and tells, "really? So what did you see?"
   "Actually, your nose is just so just sticking out in an awkward angle, its gross!"
   
   **She may cry, sob or bring on flood or simply walk out on you - target achieved
4. Get geeky on her Ex : "You see you have not been very cooperative, I mean just look at him, how could he be with you? And if he was, you should have done more to stay, like.....etc etc"
   You just closed your chapter with her.
5. Say how selfish you are : "Look you see, there is nothing called love, marriage, for that sake anything. I think people marry because of the benefits, I mean not just the race going on but the legal benefits and monetary benefits. We can just pretend to be married after marriage-what do you think?"
   If your date was richer, she might leave or you may have a permanent bruise from her stilettos.
   

FOR WOMEN :

A piece of advice-stay away from guys like above!

1. Make-up machine : Use all the you tube videos, mix all your eye-shadow colors, cover your skin with unmatched foundation go looking like a ball of make-up. Unless he is female deprived to a really, I mean really great extent, he should flee!
   (If you have a trouble showing off the make-up, wipe your napkin and let him see the patch of make-up.)
2. Ms. Snooty : Bring on the woman you want to be when you meet your ex, when you have a way better bf and you want to play it up. BTW he doesn't have one then. "OMG ! You've got a cute gf, oh i'm so sorry, she's just like air".
3. Your motherly affections : Pretend like being a teen single mother and be proud of it and tell him how you only need him for financial help and protection and his name and that you still have a sturdy relation with the father and he's just not willing to commit.
4. Dive into the past/get emotional/sob : This is interesting, men are visual people meaning your make-up, accessories get a + . But they are unable to handle emotions very well, infact they despise such situations. Nagging, sobbing can all be a turn-off for a guy unless he's woman deprived, in which case go to the washroom and elope!

Women are such sweet things, just couldn't find another bad thing they could do, so I'm leaving it at 4. As for men, I'm a feminist, except I see those great men-which don't exist in this world, so i completely despise them at times.

P.S. Well all the advice is not real advice, unless you really need to flee at some date. However the best ways are to be honest. This article is just bullshit and for meant to be fun. Sorry if anyone has been hurt, the intentions were clearly not so.

Which is your favorite way? Have you ever done any such thing? Do you want to add anything to the list, comment below and consider it done!

Price of a dream

It's strange how once when your in the present, it pushes you into your past and while in the past, it urged you to the present-this is specially for anyone who's past and present is parted by just the dream. The only benefit of this thing is one- you learn all your life that you made a grave mistake and yet again it was the cost of the sober present. The dream within never dies, if anyone has s told you, has lied, the fire always lives, it also ignites in lonely nights, it curses the person with the burden of 'pretense' and no matter how hard you try to live, it never lets you. This is how we feel, the fellows who give up so much of us, a part that not just belongs to us but is us. But the best part is-we never stop dreaming, no matter how much it mocks us, we have nothing more to lose, we have no more greater pain to bear. It is not everything for us or we would not let it go but it is a lot, and here we are in this world, walking every step with you, making life easy for you, doing all with the successful guys and never letting a tear even pass by. The fire burns within, the dream never dies!

Earlier this day a random conversation ignited questions as to what I am doing, as how I waste it by not doing the best what I could do....you may have read my dreams, I least mention it to keep sturdy. I hushed the topic and deviated almost naturally, it was done so many times now, I don't need to pretend, it comes natural. Deep within the fire lit a trillion times hotter than hell and I slowly brought it in bounds, clasping my fist, stopping my sob. Nothing happened, only a volcano had erupt but all within. It is ironical how life plays with your feeling even more than anyone else, it will tease you, give you hope,teach you and then finally reject you for being the most diligent student. I have actually seen people get away with a lot of things and believe me they are doing well, they will because the truth is following everything might help you to stay safe but nothing on earth can be defined in the scale of 'right' or 'wrong' exactly, there are always exceptions and we are made to listen to rules because beyond that it is beyond human comprehension, so is the system designed to manage complexity. If you ever try to say how applying a formula was not your problem but remembering the formula was, do you get marks for that? No! The system is faulty like humans, unable to quantify/qualify the most extraordinary gems born to it and only you can prove it at times.

Don't lie, a lot of you reading this has given up their dreams, no matter how long you are into this journey, you can never forget the turn you took back then-you are right now reminded of it, I know it's painful and yet it's our. Giving up somethings as precious as dreams is like killing yourself to save the world around, to move on is never what we wish but a duty we do in honor of humanity. It may be looked down or never get appreciated but only the one who has given it up knows the value of it. The world can be fought with but the soul that fight you all the time is what we actually bear, it's not easy, it's quite a pain-constant and unforgiving. We are averse to most things that are flaky, virtual or hopeful but we never cease to grow, learn and enlighten. It is an urge that we must take to keep the waters full, the smile on and to move on, we never really do yet we accept the things with it. The life then is no bad, infact it is great, however the gasp of dreamy bruise never cures, it keeps in us awake and what it has taken from us is more than a dream, it has taken us a lifetime. We know and keep learning ways to get glimpses of our dreams, sometimes through our children, sometimes through humanity but we are in this never ending quest to find the answer of our failure. The answer that will let us reach our dreams in another life, if we must be granted one!

Do you hear me? Maybe not, there is silence around but noise within. 

Sorry we gave up our dreams, sorry we are cowards, sorry we didn't try too hard, sorry we thought we are ordinary, we deeply apologize for our sins but trust me we already go through it day and night, hoping,wishing,dreaming and praying that you don't have to go through this.

-priyaani


P.S.-just share this, in the name of the great sacrifices many of us do, at various points of our life and that go unnoticed.

The Traffic signal ~ a short story

It was still autumn, the wind chilly and roads isolated in the early mornings. I as usual went for my old-school morning walk in the park nearby. As I stretched my arms wide and took some deep breaths, the air stunk of something rotting. I tried to ignore it but sooner sought its existence. I landed up at the other side of the park that I avoided due to the thick mist and as the other kinds of activity was more proactive here even in early mornings. I often imagined how the old might be dead doing their last worst deeds here and ironically the graveyard stood right beside. However what was strange was this young man on a bike, he stood very still staring at the traffic lights which dead red for the last few weeks. I neared him so much, I could almost feel his breath  on my skin and he didn't notice. I softly whispered, "The lights are asleep, they need rest, perhaps it's going to be a long time, this road is not very important". He carelessly nodded, gave me a 'who-are-you-to-interrupt' look and wound his bike around and left. I merely smiled at the situation, more at the handsome guy he was and resumed my walk.
There was something which made me uneasy the whole day, no matter what I did, I just wanted that moment back and I wanted to ask him why did he behave that strange. I almost felt the insecurity you would feel if someone tried black magic on you and you were waiting for it to work on you unsure whether to trust it. It was despicable in school and I walked back home with my books in hand. Some students even called out a farewell but I hadn't replied as it sounded like constant and the final farewell. It is strange how I had become so 'superstitious' I should say.

The following morning I didn't want to go for a walk for obvious reasons, yet my family which was almost always against morning walks insisted. Everything was getting creepier by the hour, I decided to meet the guy and ask him to stop it however. I don't know what I was doing but I started towards the park. The guy was right where he left last time, this time his black leather jacket had a seductive wet rain mark all over. I hated the thought even if I couldn't disagree, this thing was queer. He noticed me from some distance this time and signaled me to look at the traffic light, I did. It was no different. He had a smirk on his face and once again he was gone before I could tell a word. This time I realized it was not normal, that I blankly gazed at him those few moments almost hypnotized.

Next morning I wore my sunglasses and before any signaling I blatantly bursted, "Listen Mister, I don't know what things you do or use but I simply am not interested, please keep my family and me away from it".

"I am sorry mam if I hurt you in any way. Oft times I myself have mistook you for my wife and stared at you back, however when I realized I drove away. The look on your face makes you look very uncomfortable at times, I must say"

"Yes, I thought you dealt with...,with..."

"Magic? I wish I could." A sad smile touched his lips and he looked at the traffic light and said, "I lost my wife and child here, that very moment this light had stopped working, whenever I am here, I just feel it was a sign, the day this light works again  I should have them back. Crazy me but I am better crazy, reality takes them away from me." Thick drops of water were running down his cheek.

I neared him, this time not scared of any mystical powers. I wiped the tear off and hugged him very tight, the results weren't good as my sports wear got flooded with no-rain water. Sometimes a hug can be all it takes.