I'm okay..

You walked into me with your girl, she secretly smirked and you asked, "You Okay?"
"I'm Okay.."

You were acting cold for a few days,
I tried to understand,
Gave you all the space you said you often didn't get,
But there's a hint of guilt in your eyes,
When you ask if i'm okay
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time

You choose to sit beside me with your girl,
And behave like your the best friend of mine,
And I know what you did within,
Maybe it's because of the hint of guilt in your eyes?
When you ask if i'm okay
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time

You post the best pics with your girl,
They surprise me with the shapes they make,
A heart, romantic pose or something else,
I thought you were not virtual,
You didn't like the buzz around the social bee,
Maybe you also said you liked it private,
So private it didn't get to me....or are you confused like so many other times?
But there's a hint of guilt in your eyes,
When you ask if i'm okay
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time

Even if I cry around the next corner,
And I miss you like hell,
You'll never know,
Because whatever I said stands,
It's private now, and you don't have a pass no more,
Am I okay?
Yes, i'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine,
Like any other time
I'm okay, i'm alright,i'll do fine.......

A silent lover's battle

This is a story of love not war....
for the ones don't say but do, for the ones who speak only by their mind & soul,for the ones like me

It has been a problem with me,
Since childhood I can remember,
I always felt too much and said very little,
Sometimes nothing at all,
I am too shy with the matters of the heart,
But within I feel the fire roar;

Love-A matter so sacred to the heart,
I like it sincere, separate from the crowd,
Where I can look into your eyes,
And read the truth in them,
The unsaid words,
So, I wait,
I wait for my silence to meet yours,
When the crowd will break,
And we will share what we mutually sense.

I must agree though,
The society has successfully gotten this into me,
I patiently wait for the first move you make,
For I am scared more than you right now,
The rest is mine, my commitment is done,
It is not questionable, it is divine,
All you must ask is but once,
If I would like to come?..........

Love-A matter so sacred to the heart,
I like it sincere, separate from the crowd,
Where I can look into your eyes,
And read the truth in them,
The unsaid words,
So, I wait,
I wait for my silence to meet yours,
When the crowd will break,
And we will share what we mutually sense.

And I will walk the distance,
Far & wide, round and round,
Along with you,
Wherever it is,
Only in the end,
You must make sure,
You keep your words,
And your knees don't fall weak,
You don't feel tired to walk those extra miles,
Where we can count the stars,
And hear our breadths,
Where I can see your silhouette,
Against the dessert sand,
Where my hair blows wild,
And you caress their beauty,
Where there is no fear,
Only trust by being their for one another,
Even before you say,
I am already yours;

Love-A matter so sacred to the heart,
I like it sincere, separate from the crowd,
Where I can look into your eyes,
And read the truth in them,
The unsaid words,
So, I wait,
I wait for my silence to meet yours,
When the crowd will break,
And we will share what we mutually sense,
When you will kiss me like the world will end,
And we can hold tight knowing that moment is all that matters.........

Being Me-It's not hard but it's not easy I promise

'An Indian Girl', a stamp is enough to add to your barriers, I do not feel it erodes a lady's life, it does the same to men to different extents. An Indian woman is not an idea, it is a rule we live each day. Wearing jeans brings earthquakes, our hot pants are better in the cupboard, expressing yourself makes you a 'bad girl',freedom is do whatever you want inside the house, protecting the land is not your forte, karate is not needed just call your rapers brother-Now Some People Are Upset with the GenY going mad!

Every day will be judgmental, every day you will see failures decide for your faith, at the day end you will realize the time has slipped and your love has walked away never to return. Every day is not  a new opportunity, it is Me who causes this pain to myself. I am solely responsible for each moment that I breadth & decide to do so. Being free is not the solution, it is an escape plan I never choose. Some places I think like I left back my dreams, I paid too much for the other part but how would I choose between the two? Some choices are difficult, never right or wrong....

I do a decent job being me. Not much, striving to do & experiment every day & i'm lucky to have that chance. I'm an emotional fool, heart affairs are overly sensitive to me and not all boys interest me, even if they do I court shy. Yet I must be married by a deadline they say. I'm tried of this struggle, yet i'm fighting a battle not just with the society, but with the monitors of it who are my parents too. It's not easy to make your point. We all (Indian Ladies) do a great job I believe. So much, it deserves some thought. You'll see more details.

I request the guys out there to make this easier for us. I say i'm not rocket science, but it does need some patience. Just try to understand us, you may fail but if you try that's good enough. We are complicated, not that much though as much as portrayed, we grew up in separate society laws,privileges, circumstances. Let's make your daughter's life better, let's not give her a reason to be Feminist, let's make it happen.

22 years and nothing has changed, the day you realize the world will go on without you just the way it is, you'll run for your dreams. But some of us live in a dream where the world needs us, where we decide sometime not quite the best. No, i'm not selfless but you know what-i'm me & it's not easy I promise.



Some great songs to brighten your mood:

"I cannot make it to the end, I can only push a stone, maybe it will knock your door?"-priyaani