The Red Umbrella

It must have been dark when I jolted into reality, wet from the rain that had drowned the city. You must not be harsh on me, I am not to be blamed, not many a times do times like this come back, divulging me into sweet memory lanes with you.

Love has never harmed, it may have pained though. 
I would never like to take a moment back from these moments even if I knew the end was futile. Somehow, I enjoy the journey of love, every bit of it, the ending is just another part, which goes wrong many a times. Have you fallen in love, have you lived it, then may be you know what I say.

We were out shopping and gallivanting in the cheap discount stores like most mundane weekends. We loved each others companies and were found in birdy clusters shopping,feasting or just straying. The best part of our BFF hangouts were the freedom, it gave us the liberty of being you, no one would judge us and no one would look down. We exchanged ideas,surprises,worries and often a part of us. We were a closely knit friend family of three-Priyaani (or Pry),Uani (or Uan),Natavu (or Nat). Things got very different in seconds later.

I was in a pensive mood and we discussed on our family troubles, verdicts of college and moving out. It was a tough time for us and we were each trying to help but were equally lonely ourselves. To our surprise, Uan's mentioned her new relationship. It's nothing small for the tiny family we were, a new intruder was never welcome and we've been singles from the time we were born. Uan's being the shiest announced her relationship (first precisely). Nat's and I exchanged looks in apprehension,jealousy,underestimation etc. However this was a secret, Uan's only got warm congrats and lovely smiles. We were singles but we could fake it whenever needed. I remember Nat's faking a cry scene in a mall just to force her father with some gifts she wanted to give him. Uan's was in a different world and noticed nothing of the undercurrent she just set. She also looked like a stage higher than us, considering herself sole mature advice centre and starting eyeing us as 'kids'. Things weren't fair at all because of this MR.New namely George (or G).

Next few weekends Uan's was missing, Nat's and I went out vagabonding. Trying the all together thing was the worst idea, wherever we went, the scale of romance was at the peak while sense of  'wanting to punch' was at peak for the rest. When we first saw G, we jumped to conclusions-

1. he's a playboy, 
2. he's too handsome for Uan, 
3. he was into illegal stuff, 
4. he was the ultimate bad guy, 
5. he will leave Uan all broken.

If I ever told you about breadth taking beauty, this was quite that. The right proportion of black eyes,dark hair,perfectly tanned skin,a cliche sense of fashion,a desperate sexy walk and lastly a heart break handshake. After all this, you could not resist him because of his truth, every word spoken seemed like humble,fresh and true. Nothing seemed wrong, just nothing.

------To be contd. in this post itself within a week-------
Sorry guys for not meeting the deadline, it will be done by end of October or even sooner. My sincere apologies.

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part2

He also had a red umbrella, listened to 'Shania twain' and humbly paid the bills. So what to do with this perfect one?

Nat and I coherently decided "Gotta kick out G!"
So we plan. The together meetings increase, we help each one to be their best and hence help Uan to see what she missed, 'freedom'. Freedom is such a thing that people may not fight for the country but always defend for oneself. Things got twitchy and with time the peak of romance dropped. Not much time and Uan came crying to us, complained on the idiot G was and we helped her sober down. So, Never Ever try to get into BFFs.......it is fatal!

We had a few weeks of friendly meet outs before exams turned our casual outings to ban and we retreated to 1night studies and succumbed to family rambles. On one such night while I stayed alone at home preparing for the exam next day, there was a bell. I checked from the window pane and what I saw was shocking......'G'!

And let me tell you, its not easy to see someone horribly wet(was raining) standing at your doorway in the most pensive mood possible. Not more when he is so damn irresistible. I couldn't help but feel bad for him, specially for what we had done to him. However that was my secret, he didn't know, right? Or I hoped so. The perfect physique crumbled before me and turned absolutely dull, he was crying. I hate to say this but yes this is the worst part, I had to ask him in and to calm down. He relentlessly recited the break up and how things split and it was still a maze to him. I tried to be as sympathetic as possible but I could not help feel the guilt in me rise beyond bounds. In such a moment he neared me and kissed me. Being a complete loner, I have to agree it was not bad, infact very good, except the guilt had gone even higher. He softly embraced me and said, "I'm sorry, thanks for being there.Adieu". He parted with his red umbrella over his head.

Even though the meeting had abruptly ended, it was sweet farewell with every inch of meeting soon rock solid. Even though he said sorry, I didn't feel any of it and yet the eyes were so convincing, I believed him.From this time I tried to separate guilt and my feelings, I tried to defeat my love, after all it had come just once, it really was not a small deal. I think I made things complex, I should have believed my heart but its not so easy really, when you're hit at the weakest time in life, we often succumb. In the pale thought of our future, the BFFs were fading, I tried to justify "they have split, ofcourse they have,isin't it?". "Was I wrong? I was guilty of the past but that couldn't be undone. Was I still wrong for being a little selfish once?"

----to be contd. asap---