It's strange how once when your in the present, it pushes you into your past and while in the past, it urged you to the present-this is specially for anyone who's past and present is parted by just the dream. The only benefit of this thing is one- you learn all your life that you made a grave mistake and yet again it was the cost of the sober present. The dream within never dies, if anyone has s told you, has lied, the fire always lives, it also ignites in lonely nights, it curses the person with the burden of 'pretense' and no matter how hard you try to live, it never lets you. This is how we feel, the fellows who give up so much of us, a part that not just belongs to us but is us. But the best part is-we never stop dreaming, no matter how much it mocks us, we have nothing more to lose, we have no more greater pain to bear. It is not everything for us or we would not let it go but it is a lot, and here we are in this world, walking every step with you, making life easy for you, doing all with the successful guys and never letting a tear even pass by. The fire burns within, the dream never dies!
Earlier this day a random conversation ignited questions as to what I am doing, as how I waste it by not doing the best what I could do....you may have read my dreams, I least mention it to keep sturdy. I hushed the topic and deviated almost naturally, it was done so many times now, I don't need to pretend, it comes natural. Deep within the fire lit a trillion times hotter than hell and I slowly brought it in bounds, clasping my fist, stopping my sob. Nothing happened, only a volcano had erupt but all within. It is ironical how life plays with your feeling even more than anyone else, it will tease you, give you hope,teach you and then finally reject you for being the most diligent student. I have actually seen people get away with a lot of things and believe me they are doing well, they will because the truth is following everything might help you to stay safe but nothing on earth can be defined in the scale of 'right' or 'wrong' exactly, there are always exceptions and we are made to listen to rules because beyond that it is beyond human comprehension, so is the system designed to manage complexity. If you ever try to say how applying a formula was not your problem but remembering the formula was, do you get marks for that? No! The system is faulty like humans, unable to quantify/qualify the most extraordinary gems born to it and only you can prove it at times.
Don't lie, a lot of you reading this has given up their dreams, no matter how long you are into this journey, you can never forget the turn you took back then-you are right now reminded of it, I know it's painful and yet it's our. Giving up somethings as precious as dreams is like killing yourself to save the world around, to move on is never what we wish but a duty we do in honor of humanity. It may be looked down or never get appreciated but only the one who has given it up knows the value of it. The world can be fought with but the soul that fight you all the time is what we actually bear, it's not easy, it's quite a pain-constant and unforgiving. We are averse to most things that are flaky, virtual or hopeful but we never cease to grow, learn and enlighten. It is an urge that we must take to keep the waters full, the smile on and to move on, we never really do yet we accept the things with it. The life then is no bad, infact it is great, however the gasp of dreamy bruise never cures, it keeps in us awake and what it has taken from us is more than a dream, it has taken us a lifetime. We know and keep learning ways to get glimpses of our dreams, sometimes through our children, sometimes through humanity but we are in this never ending quest to find the answer of our failure. The answer that will let us reach our dreams in another life, if we must be granted one!
Do you hear me? Maybe not, there is silence around but noise within.
Sorry we gave up our dreams, sorry we are cowards, sorry we didn't try too hard, sorry we thought we are ordinary, we deeply apologize for our sins but trust me we already go through it day and night, hoping,wishing,dreaming and praying that you don't have to go through this.
-priyaani
P.S.-just share this, in the name of the great sacrifices many of us do, at various points of our life and that go unnoticed.
Earlier this day a random conversation ignited questions as to what I am doing, as how I waste it by not doing the best what I could do....you may have read my dreams, I least mention it to keep sturdy. I hushed the topic and deviated almost naturally, it was done so many times now, I don't need to pretend, it comes natural. Deep within the fire lit a trillion times hotter than hell and I slowly brought it in bounds, clasping my fist, stopping my sob. Nothing happened, only a volcano had erupt but all within. It is ironical how life plays with your feeling even more than anyone else, it will tease you, give you hope,teach you and then finally reject you for being the most diligent student. I have actually seen people get away with a lot of things and believe me they are doing well, they will because the truth is following everything might help you to stay safe but nothing on earth can be defined in the scale of 'right' or 'wrong' exactly, there are always exceptions and we are made to listen to rules because beyond that it is beyond human comprehension, so is the system designed to manage complexity. If you ever try to say how applying a formula was not your problem but remembering the formula was, do you get marks for that? No! The system is faulty like humans, unable to quantify/qualify the most extraordinary gems born to it and only you can prove it at times.
Don't lie, a lot of you reading this has given up their dreams, no matter how long you are into this journey, you can never forget the turn you took back then-you are right now reminded of it, I know it's painful and yet it's our. Giving up somethings as precious as dreams is like killing yourself to save the world around, to move on is never what we wish but a duty we do in honor of humanity. It may be looked down or never get appreciated but only the one who has given it up knows the value of it. The world can be fought with but the soul that fight you all the time is what we actually bear, it's not easy, it's quite a pain-constant and unforgiving. We are averse to most things that are flaky, virtual or hopeful but we never cease to grow, learn and enlighten. It is an urge that we must take to keep the waters full, the smile on and to move on, we never really do yet we accept the things with it. The life then is no bad, infact it is great, however the gasp of dreamy bruise never cures, it keeps in us awake and what it has taken from us is more than a dream, it has taken us a lifetime. We know and keep learning ways to get glimpses of our dreams, sometimes through our children, sometimes through humanity but we are in this never ending quest to find the answer of our failure. The answer that will let us reach our dreams in another life, if we must be granted one!
Do you hear me? Maybe not, there is silence around but noise within.
Sorry we gave up our dreams, sorry we are cowards, sorry we didn't try too hard, sorry we thought we are ordinary, we deeply apologize for our sins but trust me we already go through it day and night, hoping,wishing,dreaming and praying that you don't have to go through this.
-priyaani
P.S.-just share this, in the name of the great sacrifices many of us do, at various points of our life and that go unnoticed.
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